I could no longer recognize the girl in the mirror; a once happy, full of life girl was now paled by grief and sadness.
I was completely lost under wave after wave of crushing sadness and I had no way of getting out.
Things that used to give me pleasure were now tasks that took what little energy I had away from me; I stopped writing and had to force myself to go out with friends to “keep up with appearances.” I stopped eating and lost weight – once again, I had to force myself to eat to keep everyone around me from thinking that there was something wrong.
By the year anniversary of my dad’s death, I couldn’t take the depression any longer.
The investigation into his death has been turned over to the Los Angeles County coroner's office to determine how the soul singer died.
Authorities have conducted a toxicology test to see if there was any alcohol or drugs in his system.
I would plaster on a fake smile, go out with friends and continue to go to school like I was fine.
On the inside, however, I was crushed under the weight of my depression and constant numbness.
To my surprise, I found myself feeling attracted to him. This innocent exchange of glances made me uncomfortable, but only in a sense that I realized I was no longer a married woman but an available single one. First, I needed to be willing to discuss dating with people who I was close to. He said genuinely that he wanted me to be happy and that he knew Mark would want me to be happy too. I wasn’t sure what she would say and was shocked when she didn’t say anything. Second, I needed to know that I wouldn’t be dating to just fill a void. However I had met Mark online and thought it was a good place to start. It felt a little uncomfortable to be searching for a ‘new’ man after being with one man for ten years.Intent on pursuing a solo career as a rapper, West released his debut album The College Dropout in 2004 to widespread critical and commercial success, and founded the record label GOOD Music.He went on to pursue a variety of different styles on subsequent albums Late Registration (2005), Graduation (2007), and 808s & Heartbreak (2008).In 2010, he released his fifth album My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy to rave reviews from critics, and the following year he collaborated with Jay Z on the joint LP Watch the Throne (2011).West released his abrasive sixth album, Yeezus, to further critical praise in 2013.